9/26 Need a meeting

I have been owly and tense all day. What I really need is a meeting. Unfortunately there isn't one here. At all. Tomorrow, IF Bill doesn't change his mind again we will be in Avalon and they have meetings there. But until then I just feel off. So I came here to write and I wrote a long email to my friend Barbara. This morning I prayed and read half of a grapevine. Plus i picked up a daily devotional on from a pile of used books the other day and I have been reading it each day. It is a 2009 book but i figure if it would work in 2009 it couldn't be so terribly off one year later. And hey it was free! I am still pretty much grasping at straws here trying to stay connected to AA.
I got an invite through LIM (Loners and Internationalists meeting) to join an email meeting. I just joined and it might be a good new addition. Unfortunately it means a lot of stuff in my in box. They are a prolific group. And as much as I appreciate the choice and the chance I am not sure it will work out. For two reasons. 1. When stuff comes in to my inbox I have a hard time not getting involved. So i am compelled to write back. We are actually trying to sort of drop out. That is part of the draw of doing this thing. Already I am spending a great deal of time writing......for two blogs and an ever increasing amount of personal correspondence. It is all good. In fact I am more connected to some of the extended members of my family than before we left. And i am writing to several LIM members and all the rest. 2. Once we leave CA we will be paying for every byte we send and receive. SO I just simply cant have a full box everytime I open my email. I value my emails from friends and family so much that I may have to call it quits with the email AA meeting. They just send out so much stuff.
Well, this was all just a bunch of blathering. Not much of any substance just a way to connect. I miss my regular meetings and I miss the sober women in my life. Night.